One OF those DAYS...

Yesterday was such a strange, weird, annoying day! I got the kids off to school and had to go pick up some make up. I then came home and just hung out around the house. I really wasn't in any kind of mood but I knew it wasn't going to be good for some reason. I am tired of winter already! I hate the gray dreary day. Its too cold to do anything but run to my van and then run back in. I guess the day really started to annoy me when Dan got off early and was home around 1:30. My house was a mess. When I have days like this I usually do nothing and then at 2 speed clean so it LOOKS like I had something done. But he came home early... which ANNOYED me to know end. And he was telling me stupid stories that quite frankly I was in no mood for. I told him to take a nap or something because he was bugging me. He decided to go to a friends house instead. So its time to get Ethan from school and Dan still isn't home. What I would give to just go to a friends house some days instead of picking up Ethan from school. I felt that the school day wasn't long enough yesterday. I picked Ethan up and he got in the car and started firing questions at me. Like he waited ALL day to ask. I love my son but sometimes 8 year olds ask the strangest things. You try to answer but they keep firing question after question and QUESTION. Just STOP you want to yell but I don't. I could tell that bed time couldn't get here fast enough. We got thru homework with tears (why does homework always end up in tears... no idea). Oh Dan comes home right when homework is starting and declares he needs a nap! WHAT!!?? A NAP?? Why do I always have to be the one to do homework? Supper came along AND then the sullen teenager came home. You can always tell if the teenager had a bad day EVERYONE is going to feel the tension and THAT BAD DAY! She walked in the house and everyone knew it. We all ended up eating supper in silence. I will post about her boy problems another day another time. That is a whole other can of worms! So we finally got thru the evening. Hillary wasn't speaking to me ... I told her to go to bed early and I really didn't want to see her the rest of the night. Ethan is going thru one of his PHASES and can't sleep thru the night and ends up with me. I am sorry but I loved snuggling with my 2, 3 or even 4 year old... .8 year old.. NOT SO MUCH! I finally got to lay down and then the GUILT kicked in. I don't think I was very nice to anyone today. I could tell I wasn't going to have a good night but what can you do? I can't just leave. I can't just say ..sorry everyone I am in a MOOD and you are all on your own. SO instead of giving myself a time out I took it out on everyone (well not Hillary..she had her own attitude problems). How could I be such a WITCH to my babies??? I felt so bad that I vowed I would leave them today with a kind word if it killed me. Ethan fired questions at me as soon as he got up and I just told him that my brain couldn't function and we would GOOGLE them later. Hillary was still being a little PITA but I told her I loved her and to have a good day at school (thru clenched teeth no less). I felt better when they left so I went shopping. Shopping cures EVERYTHING! I just needed to spend some money. Today after school Ethan came home and I told him lets just lay down and talk and cuddle. It was nice! He is a great kid ..just in that annoying stage right now. I told them today I was sorry for being in such a bad mood. I just wanted them to know... its okay to not be the PERFECT mom you are SUPPOSED to be and its okay!!